Dilly-Dallier

Stressed!

shit happens and this is one of them. Where I can’t sleep! I’ve been lying for 3 hours after been awake for almost 32 hours and it sucks.. My mind is filled with elsewhere I can’t stop my brain from working. I’m incapable of controlling my mind buggling thoughts, oh dear! I’ve gone through my bible and still didn’t made it! Crap! this is such a madness and how very unlucky I am knowing in 4 hours time I have to be at work ready to save lives!

Give me atleast the powernap like what natgeo said!

You don’t know

I thought I was only infatuated just because you are popular and you are the first one who approached me for whatever lame reasons you got. But the fact that you have been running through my mind all these years (although I am somewhat in a relationship that time) and you don’t have a clue how much I wanted you, makes me craZy! And those little conversations we first have that I can’t forget..haaayy… sadly,.I know I can’t dwell on this feeling because it is impossible for you to like me want me after all I’m just an ordinary woman and you’re Mr. Popular and you got tons of girls models beauty queens around you.. Or maybe I’m just a fan a booty call.. Oh how I wish fairytales are true, that I could have genie and wish for you :(

Through..

Its odd how I liked the feeling that those guys who were once a part of your life would came back and say how much they regretted on taking me for granted and wants me back. Haaay! regrets will always be a regret! Sorry I’m quite fond with someone right now.

Dear Bogs

Finally made a decision to leave him for good. I have been trying to end it for so long time now because I know i am not what he deserves, Maybe a cliche for some but it’s true, we have outgrown each other. I hope to stand up for this, I hope I can make it this time. We have been running in circles for quite a while now and keeps on going back for nothing.

Well He was really my only true lover. He was the only who knew me.. better than anyone else not even my family. He was the only one who didn’t care if my fingers are dirty my hair is a messed my teeth are stained my clothes are crumpled my fart smells damn shit my room is messy he eats even if the food I cooked failed to impress his taste. He was the only one who knew how to manage my mood swings. He was the perfect guy perhaps and I am not the perfect girl as to what he believed in. it’s really not easy to end our story.

And Damn It’s hard to reply as one liner, to avoid conversations he is trying.. I really hate it when I have to careless, be rude to him because I know that being nice would actually make him believe that he still affects me in some ways. That because i know he still love me and he’d never give up on me if he sees even a small chance, as what you’ve told me. I remember you said that even I lose my legs we’ll still go on dates, you’ll buy me a wheelchair we’ll discover the world together… Oh dear here I am again…

Well Everything seems to be too good to be true about you.. And while you are being a good or the best man to me, I was looking for something else… I was caught by the wind away from you without even realizing how far I’ve gone.

So I am really sorry.. I just don’t want to hurt you more.. -bogs